Trying not to Defeat Myself

The LSAT is 10 days away and I am at that high stress point that it is affecting me in very negative ways. Earlier today, I had an incident at work that was truly petty looking back on it, but at the time had me almost in tears. I would like to blame this on hormones, but I know that's not the case. The more I think of it, Jeff's explanation of the testosterone that builds up as a result of the marathon and it will take awhile to get my body back to normal, makes a heck of a lot of sense. Apparently, today the estrogen has taken over. Or maybe my new bra is cutting off circulation to my brain.

Anyway, another night and another practice test. Problem is that over the last 2 nights, my scores have dropped instead of staying the same or increasing. Whether this is caused by stress, by lack of sleep, or a combination of these factors, I'm not sure. However, I want it to stop! I need a good score on this and I'm fully capable of getting it. Jeff recommended that I take a day off from studying and I think I am going to have to do that in order to decompress and refocus. Assumption and strengthen/weaken questions continue to be my nemesis, but I control them and not the other way around. Really, I'm just putting all this down in order to vent and get it out. Otherwise, the negative thoughts I am having will fester and grow and ultimately defeat me.

On a good note, I spoke with my former boss and he said that he will be happy to write my letter of recommendation and will do whatever he can to help me. I have an appointment to go see him on July 8, after he returns from a mission trip to Panama. This will give me my LORs. Since I already have my Personal Statement drafted, the only thing I will have to complete is the applications themselves, and I'll have everything ready to go as soon as applications open.

Also, I was surprised to get my package from Team Tiara today in the mail. And, the coolest thing is that my tiara (which I will decorate at a party mid-training) is PINK! I can't wait to add some bling and pizazz and make it my own. I can promise that everyone will see me on the course.

With all this being said, I'm going to go to bed, get a good night's sleep and start anew and refreshed tomorrow. Tomorrow evening I plan to get in a run and then I get to have dinner with the girls and Jeff will be home. Yay!! I'll have to pack tomorrow night for our Saturday morning flight.